Incompatible

Just last post, I mentioned that I've improved at seeing the things that are wrong with my life.

Between that post and this post, I overreacted at work at least one time that I can remember. By "overreacting," I mean that I allowed the day's hectic schedule to affect me so that I wound up expressing my anger in a way that is not productive.

The fact is that things are going to get more and more hectic because of timing. Where I work, business experiences an upswing during the fall and Christmas seasons. More customers, more orders, more backorders, more "questions-that-certain-people-have-to-deal-with-immediately," and more distractions all lead to more stress. It affects everybody, and what's worse--we are just warming up. How can I say that I am a different person, when I react in anger the way that I did?

How can I show that my attitude is based on following Christ? How do I reach people if my own behavior is incompatible with the message I am supposed to carry?

I should upgrade that question to make the real issue stand out: "If I claim to be a Christian, then why do I still sin? Now that I'm supposed to be a 'different person,' why do I still fall back into my old habits?"

The inverted life is a "life" not a one-time decision. I'm going to keep running into that question everywhere I go. Guess what? I'm going to keep running into that question even when (especially when) I think I've got the answers all figured out.